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She smiled fondly at the past, inviting it closer to clutch desperately at the times when everything seemed forever. Glancing up she saw an old toy horse.  It spoke of years of playful torture at her hands, the strands of hair that made a glorious mane and handsome tail were long gone. Worn patches remained as a lasting testimony to hair that had long ago been loved off.

Here in this sterile place her life was summarised into a few objects. And People. Her eyes fell on her husband, staring down at her. Pictures hung casually from the walls.

That time she'd slipped through a barrier of riot police to snap an award winning shot of carnage.

The day she climbed a foreign mountain in wind and rain because the sky looked better from up high.

I'm scared she confessed this silently, her voice failing her as it so often did now. His smile didn't crease as he pressed a cool hand against her smooth forehead.
'But you're stronger than anyone I know.' He reminded her and kneeling forward, he continued, 'Your quiet belief in angels,' he whispered, 'will bring us together again one day.'

How do you know? Her frown challenged him, How do you know what's true anymore?

He shook his head, eyes glistening, 'I know this much is true.'

She stared at the old toy horse, at the photos and her wedding ring. Three decades of memories flew through the albums in her mind. She placed her hand on his knee, I love you. She didn't need to say the words because he could feel the warmth spreading through him at her touch. But still his throat closed up and his heart contracted.

She nodded at him.  It was time.

'Let's get this over with.' He murmured and closed his eyes as a smile broke her face.

So we can laugh about it later.

He took the pillow and clasped her hands together tightly as he gently covered her face. He knelt on the bed to steady himself.  She didn't move and he trembled before firmly pushing down.

The struggling began, she thrashed and kicked viciously. The weakness that had left her body when cancer moved in was suddenly gone and he faltered, imagining for one second that she was better. Her words from months before struck him roughly.

Keep going. No matter what I do. Keep going. I want to go to a better place.

He kept going, tears streaming down his face and soaking the pillow he was using to kill his wife. Sobs racked his body but he didn't care if somebody heard because what else was there for him now?

It was a while before he realised she had stilled. He slowly pushed the pillow away from her, almost frightened at what he would see. But he didn't need to be, buried in the lines that chemotherapy and suffering had etched on her face, was relief and freedom.

He smoothed a hand gently over her head, stroking softly over the places where, long ago, her hair had been loved off.
A License To Kill

I've thought about this alot lately, in what situations (if any) would it be okay to end a human beings suffering? Every week this issue creeps closer and closer to my heart. Not because I want to request or administer this option to end life, but because I can see a situation where one day, somebody will have to choose.

Can you love someone enough to do this? Could you end somebodys life because it would be the only thing that can set them free from pain. Because it would be the only thing to make them happy.

Could you end their life for them? Or would you refuse, for yourself.

This was inspired by, as I said before, a situation which is getting closer and closer to me. It's just thoughts, feelings...But where's the line? Where do we cross it? Do we cross it? Boundaries are something that many people don't consider important enough to invade their thoughts everyday. What do you think?
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i was touched and yes, tears welled in my eyes when i finished the story. it is a beautiful yet heart wrenching story. i read it a couple of times a few days apart hoping it wasn't my mood that was effecting the response, but it wasn't.

i'm still conflicted with many thoughts about the questions raised in this story. the social questions of right to die, the feelings of the wife and husband and the consequences of the husbands actions.

i liked the use of symbolism of the toy's hair and the wife's hair loss due to the cancer treatments. the temporal references to the husband and wife's lifelong love added humanity to the story. it wasn't a cold report of the facts.

i can't seem to bring my thoughts on the questions raised by this story into coherence in my mind, but being aware of the question is the first step in understanding the question. in the end, i don't think there any answers, only people. this is what this story was about.

besides, it is hard to be remote and objective when you are weeping.

i give this story the highest of marks.
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Kassi-Kamira Featured By Owner May 14, 2010  Hobbyist Writer
KreepingSpawn Featured By Owner Apr 28, 2010  Professional Digital Artist
their absolute devotion comes through loud and clear. the last line is priceless!
beautiful work.
Kaz-D Featured By Owner May 2, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Thank you very much :hug:
leftxunbroken Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2010
Definitely not a good topic of conversation. Definitely controversial. While I feel it is a person's right to die, however they choose, it's an inner conflict that keeps me from wanting to allow it. I know, conflicting sentence, no? You never know when that huge break through will come out. You never know who else could love you enough to fight for you to live.
Being a survivor suicide, I don't think people know what they're doing and who they'll hurt when they decide to end it all in a moment.
Kaz-D Featured By Owner Feb 26, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
It is very controversial isn't it!
Thank you for the comment, it's very interesting to read your view :)
Aznarei Featured By Owner Feb 22, 2010
I loved this...
So thought-provoking and controversial to each person his own...
It's like, is it [murder] or [mercy] to kill someone you love that much, not for yourself, but for the happiness of your love?

Reminds me of a book...Mercy, by Jodi Picoult...
A man kills his wife with a pillow to end her suffering from some disease, and though he really didn't want to, he did, because that's what she requested and what she wanted most in the world at that point. He didn't want to to suffer, and took mercy and killed her...then he promptly drives to the police station and announces that he killed his wife.

Good job, it's really really good! Keep it up!
Kaz-D Featured By Owner Feb 24, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
I've never heard of that book and I thought I had all of Jodi Picoults! :faint: I'm reading 'The Pact' right now, which kinda touches on this sort of thing. I have read it before, but can't remember how it ends :shrug: I'm going to find Mercy definitely :D I tried a quick search but could only come up with a Spanish version. :o

Thank you so much for the comment!
Aznarei Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2010
The that the one about the suicide pact? I haven't read it yet, but I want to...^^

Picoult has her website at, you might want to check there. =]

I personally LOVE Handle With Care, which is her newest's about a 7-year-old girl, Willow, who has had 52(54?) broken bones, because she has OI, osteogenesis's a disease that makes her bones so fragile that even a sneeze could break one. It's really expensive to care for a child with OI, so, in order to give Willow a better life, her mother files a lawsuit. As she later finds out, the only way to benefit from a lawsuit is to complain that she never had a choice, which meant announcing to the world that she wished that Willow was never born, when the truth is that she is sacrificing everything so that Willow can live a better life...
Definitely a good book!
Kaz-D Featured By Owner Feb 27, 2010  Hobbyist Photographer
Oh I read Handle With Care! :D Sorry...after you wrote all that out :P I also loved the one before, Change of heart :nod: that was very good. Can't wait for the next, think it's out in April maybe.

Yes that's the Pact, the double suicide thing. Very good :nod: Have you seen My Sisters Keeper?
Aznarei Featured By Owner Mar 1, 2010
Ehh....s'okay. :D I still haven't gotten over obsessing about it...xP

The next one is...House Rules? I think...

Yah, I did...the beginning was cool, how they mimicked her change of POV...and the line: "This is my sister, Kate. *pause* She's dying."

Though, I really really really didn't like how they changed the ending. I mean, Picoult's books are meant to have you think and rethink your beliefs and stuff...but I think many people could've guessed the ending the movie stuck on...
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